xx

Please don't say we're done
When I'm not finished
cus I could give you so much more
Make you feel, like never before
Welcome, they said welcome to the floor

It's been a while
And you've found someone better
But I've been waiting too long to give this up
The more I see, I understand
But sometimes, I still need you

Sometimes, I still need you

I was struggling to get in
Left waiting outside your door
I was sure
You'd give me more

No need to come to me
When I can make it all the way to you
You made it clear
You weren't near
Near enough for me

Heart skipped a beat
And when I caught it you were out of reach
But I'm sure, I'm sure
You've heard if before

High Expectations Low results. I've never felt more alone.

And when I caught it you were out of reach

The more I see, I understand
But sometimes, I still need you

Sometimes, I still need you

I just want to kill some time. Just with you.
I've been overdosing myself with too much of the xx.
I like writing in sentences. Tomorrow is my birthday party. I don't know whether to be excited. I'm mostly nervous. Twenty one in twenty ten. Sydney weather is always pmsing. Maybe i'm pmsing too?

Read the most amusing review on vice:
"I wouldn't listen to this album before falling asleep because i might have dreams about being boring."
- Rangi ranginui on 'deastro'

I have an awful temper. After the angry subsides, i just feel empty. Kind of like eating a bueno, you take a bite and there's only a little bit of cream, then you feel heavily disappointed you spent $2.50 on chocolate air. But i'm not full of delicious cream. Fuck i yap on about useless metaphors.

I am yours now so now I don't ever have to leave

I love how one line in a song defines the mood, not the entire song. Bitch be talking crazy!

It's only castles burning.

When I'm down i have a knack for listening to Neil Young over and over. I discovered Neil Young in year 8 when i walked past my dad's bedroom while he was listening to 'Don't let it bring you down.' I realised that it was an Annie Lennox cover in American Beauty, you know in that climactic scene where Kevin slowly undresses Mena Suvari, don't get too turned on. I get really disappointed of the number of people who haven't even heard of Neil. Oh yes i enjoyed my doses of Ja rule and Nelly (er and even J. Lo) in 2002, but After the Goldrush is the album i fell in love with (It took my dad 3 years to figure out his CD was missing). I wish i could sing only to sing 'Birds,' so i can upload it onto my Youtube account. Not really. As gay as this is going to sound, but i feel like there's a hole in my chest and it's only getting deeper. I don't know how to fix it. And i don't know where you are.

Ten.

Happy New Year Folks.

Decided to update my blog (again) in response to my new year's resolution, which is 'to do stuff.' How was your new years? Good I hope. Other than doing stuff, i've also made the resolution to be less awkward and more sociable, and venting on the blog is a little nice step. 2009 went horrifically fast, is it because we're getting older? I must admit on the first day of New year's a part of me died. I don't feel the same or have the same outlook on people nor myself, but i'm glad that part of me has gone. Don't laugh but i also had this tiny little voice telling me what to say and i'd say the exact opposite or something that went along the lines of 'mumble mumble.' That voice has gone, i guess it was my 'inner child' (insert chuckle). There are so many awful people out there, and i'm not excluding myself (i'm sure i fall into that category most definitely) and i just don't get why people just lie around and 'sigh.' Ignorance is bliss then.

Indulging in many movies, tv series, music blogs and books, i still am the very same person i was ten years ago. Although i'm not into eminem anymore, back then i had the Slim Shady EP... uh what were we talking about. Ah yes, I will be and always be the same person as the weird little eleven year old kid lurking in the background of a group photo, mumbling nonsense and liking anything and everything against what everyone likes and i don't give a fuck what you think. HAPPY 2010! xo