Manila Sky

Next week is crunch week and i've barely been productive. Lemongrove has the best egg tarts in Chatswood, can't get enough of them. I'm desconstructing Millennium Mambo, and company haveboth fallen asleep (haha) I think i'm going to hand in my philosophy essay late. It seemed that heaps of people went to Oxford st. last night, i can't wait to get out after this horrible horrible week has passed over. I'm getting lazy again.

YOYOMA

Quite tired and even closer to getting a job.

Arriane moved in, and i'm so glad she did :) This is the first time i've had trouble writing a blog entry, i really don't know, probably because i'm preoccupied with watching Seinfeld, oh my god, it is the most hilarious show (ex cartoons) "i have goosebumps COME ON TOUCH THEM!" "YA GOTTA SEE THE BABYBEE!"

I laughed so hard dad told me to shutup. I love Kramer, he's got awesome style rofl. Went around the city today to chanel, dior, fendi etc. As if you would buy a wallet for 700 bucks! I'm too tired to write, i'll blog another time.

waves

Good afternoon.

Had another satisfying dream, although not as fulfilling as the night before because I indulged in a quick game of scrabble that lasted until 4am, dammit.

Well, yes i am obsessed with the interpretation of dreams if you hadn't noticed! I was thinking, since we can lucid dream, how do we know what is real? I can be dreaming right now and not even notice and that my 'dreams' at night are actually a reality? Fuck that i'm talking about my dream now.

Another recurring dream i have involves waves. I was relaxing on the beach and going out into the ocean with my surfboard, then all of sudden the waves grew like 10 m engulfing me! i closed my eyes and swam and i eventually landed on the beach again, watching all my friends cope with the enormity of these gigantic waves. I waited until they got out of the water and watched these waves tumble, then this monster wave that was about 20 m high reached close to our sand, and we closed our eyes because we knew we were going to die. I heard a loud crash sound and opened my eyes, we were still alive! but in front of us was with huuuuge hole the wave had made. We looked down and we didn't know where the water had gone. Another dream was on the beach again and we were being photographed by a pregnant lady, and there was a sunset by the beach. Another huge wave was about to gorge us again and i pulled a confused face - then the pregnant lady told me to keep a straight face and that the waves can't touch us.

Well yeah that was my dream. Woken up by a lovely message from torz :) - can she be any sweeter? haha. That was about 2 hours ago. I'm hungry :( and watching Oprah. I desperately want some food and a new toothbrush.

the night starts here

Midnight fights & daytime riots

The night starts here... forget your name forget your fear.

On Sunday I fell asleep at 10:30 pm and woke up at 10 am, feeling pretty good. I had about 5 dreams, they were queer. I went inside a nice film school in my old school uniform and grey socks and all the girls looked at me funny and I went inside a bedroom. Then this transgender woman was aboout to make a move on me but i smudged chocolate on the bed and she started scolding me! freeeak. I went inside the bathroom to hide from this horrible woman, and saw a talking cat telling me not to worry. I hugged the cat for so long and then the lesbian came bumbling in again! i realised i had no pants on and i told her to get out.

Another dream involved time travel. The washing machine was full of dirty clothes and we had to get rid of heaps so i could fit inside in order to travel back in time! And now i forgot all the other dreams i had. damn.

On friday i kicked and punched Lana in the face, i think it was from my dream of losing teeth. I always hit her when i fall asleep. Today will smell like tomorrow.

SEX

Lalala so much controversy around this whole Bill Henson ordeal, and lalalala this whole thing will blow over (pun intended). I'm not going to voice my opinion like every other art fan because the whole thing is retarded. One strange thing about me is that i love photography that borders on the erotic, but i really, don't like pornography. Here's a tribute to Mr. Henson with other erotic photos from notable photographers. Shame on anyone for thinking that he's a ped! (there you go i voiced an opinion!) this reminds me of Australia wanting to ban Mysterious Skin - seriously, i'm going to repeat myself - what the fuck! So here's some fucking with style from some of my favourite photographers. I know they're not 13 year olds but who cares. Enjoy.

Photographers: Jonnie Craig, Jonathan Szabo, Terry Richardson, Nobuyoshi Araki and Bill Henson

Hot

had another dream with my teeth falling out.
what the fuck!

Do you want to come over to kill some time?

... put your arms around me

Having a blog is a sad reminder of how repetitive life can be. Woken up by my dad watching youtube videos as usual and my phone vibrating - and.. it was Steph! I haven't heard her voice in over a month and it was like a breath of fresh air. Good times, good times. Our conversation kept being interrupted by another phone call crossing the phone line. I can't wait to go to America next year, living it up in San Francisco and New York for about a month, sexy.

Indiana Jones tomorrow! classy.

what is love..

..baby don't hurt me, don't hurt me no more
(haha)

'Pure as fire pure as snow I knew that i found you'
'cause' you are too beautiful to fuck'
'sorry to be heavy but heavy is the cost'
'you're the piece of gold that flashes on my soul'
'she has trouble drinking milk and being school tardy'
'all the world in one grain of sand and i blown it all my world in one grain of sand and you own it'
'ten days of perfect tunes the colours red and blue we had a promise made we were in love'
'you're my favourite my moment you're my saturday'
'mirror tell her please that she's the fairest of all'
'come on hide your lovers underneath the covers'
'you know it's a pleasure to be here come on we can be here'
'oh i am not quite sleeping oh i am fast in bed'
'what ever words i say i will always love you'
'ocean breathes salty won't you carry it in your head, in your breath in your soul'
'Mother weep the years I'm missing all our time can't be given back'

Fat bitch

I haven't sat in front of the television and actually 'watched' it for a while. My tv's on most of the time, but i mainly use it if for background noise to numb any conscious thought. So, i watched Will & Grace and Sex & the city and i forgot how good those shows were. It was a particularly old episode of Sex and the city, i can tell because Carrie talks to the audience. I just literally turned on the tv on and Kirsten Davis is on Letterman, and I remember there's a sex and the city movie - I guarantee the movie will be shit cake. I'm so bored at the moment and i just realised having a public blog means people you hate get a glimpse of your rants, but i guess that's okay as long as i don't know who they are.. i suppose. Chloe Sevigny guest starred on Will and Grace and, has anybody else noticed this but doesn't she kind of look like Sarah Jessica Parker? But like a prettier version and not quite looking like a foot? I wonder what a brown bunny is. Sevigny has a nice voice.

I'm going to read and work on my zine. I've finally developed a concept for a comic - how do you like dem apples?!

HUZZAH!

Negro?

Basically sleeping all throughout my lectures and tutorials, I finally decided that I needed some sort of reward for my efforts for actually turning up. Yesterday at the rsl dad introduced me to one of his Negro friends. But by that i mean his friend coming from Montenegro. Did you laugh or were you deeply shocked and offended that I said 'Negro'? I'd rather you laughed you ignorant racist scum. Montenegro is situated in south east Europe lying next to Serbia, Croatia, Bosnia and Herzegovina, and the proper term for a person coming from Montenegro is 'Montenegrin', so i can safely call him a negrin or a 'neggi.'

Well this neggi had on one of the best outfits a geriatric could wear. I wish I had a photograph. A simple black cardigan like coat layered with a black and white intricately patterned woolly gold buttoned vest and white shirt accompanied with a cute patterned bow tie. I thought it was absolutely adorable! Apparently he cheats in chess.

I'm going a bit off topic, but anyways after hopping off the train I ducked into a Vinnies and saw a similar looking coat to his patterned vest, and yeah i bought it. I've already cut out the shoulder pads and I'm going cut the bottom so it'll look like a penguin suit. Did i mention i almost stepped on a tiny dog wearing a cardigan lying in the middle of the store?

Well that's a bastard combination of some of the interesting things that have happened over the past two days that I thought were worthy of mention. I also bought a book of textures and pattterns at Kinokuniya and have had steak for dinner three times in a row and currently surfing the crimson wave. And yes, I was at the rsl with my dad. I just have to say this, new south is a small place, you run into everyone. For now, goodbye i'm trying to dress like an old negga.

again and again

Qi Shu

I wanted to actually have hair like this once, and by once i mean five months ago.

Personal

I can never get a song out of my head unless I preoccupy myself with another one, so let me introduce my blog with the simple lyrical genius that is of 'Stars.'

wanted: single f
under 33
must enjoy the sun
must enjoy the sea
sought by single m
mrs destiny
send photo to address
is it you and me?

reply to single m:
my name is caroline
cell phone number here
call if you have the time
28 and bored
grieving over loss
sorry to be heavy
but heavy is the cost
heavy is the cost

reply to caroline:
thanks so much for response
these things can be scary
not always what you want
how about a drink?
this ancient club at noon
i'll phone you first i guess
i hope i see you soon

i never got your name
i assume you're 33
your voice it sounded kind
i hope that you like me
when you see my face
i hope that you don't laugh
i'm not a film star beauty
i'll send a photograph
i hope that you don't laugh

not to single m:
why did you not show up?
i waited for an hour
i finally gave up
i thought once that i saw you
i thought that you saw me
i guess we'll never meet now
it wasn't meant to be
it wasn't mean to be
i was sure you saw me
but it wasn't meant to be

wanted: single f
under 33
must enjoy the sun
must enjoy the sea
sought by single m
nothing too heavy
send photo to address
is it you or me?
is it you or me?
is it you or me?
is it you or me?
- Personal